Ego. The thing that every people have within themselves. Some people agree to accept some deny. I hate to tell lie or you can say I can accept things very clearly. So I can proudly announce that I have ego. Sometimes it becomes rock hard…sometimes I can manage to overcome. If it sounded like a disease let me tell you, it is a disease. Like appendix that we all have. Thanks to medical science that if appendix causes problems then we can simply cut it out from our body. But as ego is attached to our mind no medical science, nothing can cut it out.
Being a 27 years old guy I am not so much hammered by this disease, but yes, I have seen some ego clash in some of my friends’ life. I am not gonna disclose their names over here. But truly, I have learned a lot from their experiences.
1st incident: I was in class XII. One of my friends (who is not so much talented in studies, short height, good looking) fell in love with a beautiful girl who is very talented in studies and also a very good dancer (Dancing is becoming a common qualification among my lady friends). It was few months before the board exam. Once in a meeting I asked her, what if my friend could not do well in the board exam…cause I was pretty sure that she is gonna earn good percentage. She replied confidently that result was not gonna be a matter in case of their relationship. Exam was over and a long 3 months vacation made their relationship strong. Then it was result time. Result said that the girl scored 81% and my friend failed. Failed to pass the exam as well as failed to hide his result in front of his girl friend. The girl went to other place for higher studies saying that she will always be right beside my friend. Only a month after my friend got a call from her that she got a new guy over there and she wanted a break-up. My friend cried. Cried for his destiny. Cried for the girl he loved. But tears cannot rejoin a relationship (Rather ignorance can). That day I realized how ego played a role over them. Its only because of ego, the girl could not accept my friend. May be its practicality. May be its life. But I call it ego-clash.
2nd Incident: Recent story. Not so much old. Again one of my friends. Again his love relationship. He was committed to a girl for 3 years and 163 days (BTW he is very passionate about dates and good in counting…I some how felt how can it be possible…yak). They maintained a long distance relationship for around one half years (thanks god he could not remind the exact figure). Suddenly few days back he realized that his girl-friend was sounding little unknown. He overlooked. He trusted. But after few days he got a call from his girlfriend and came to know that she found somebody else who is tall handsome and with a good pocket. When my friend was telling me the story, he started like “I was defeated by 2 inches”. That actually means my friend is 5 ft 10 inch and the guy his girlfriend choose was 6 ft. BTW, finding another person, being in a relationship is very common I think. Now the story doesn’t end here. My friend still loves the girl. And the new relationship that the girl started, ended already. Now she wants him back. She wants to rejoin the relationship. I thought my friend should be glad to get her girl back, but here comes the disease. Here comes ego. My friend is not able to accept the girl because, his mind is saying that if a person can cheat/dump once, she can do it twice also. He often asks me “Should I listen to my mind or should I listen to my heart?” I know what he tries to tell. If he follows his heart now, he is gonna accept the girl. Ego will kill them slowly but steadily.
There are a lot of stories like these that I faced. Only two of them already made the topic lengthy. So in short, whenever you are asking to yourself that “Hey buddy, don’t you have self respect?” or “How can you tolerate these kinds of bullshits?” it means your ego is asking you whether you wanna be effected by the disease or not. But if you ask me that would I prefer to be an egoist…I’ll say yes. Because if something is reminding me about my self-respect, how can I ignore that?
Lastly, its starting of a new year. Time to take New Year resolutions. So here are my resolutions. I will quit smoking, I won’t look at a girl, I won’t say/listen bad, and most important I’ll break all the resolutions that I made just now.
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