Saturday, April 9, 2011

Je kotha bola hoe otheni

Toke anek kichu bolar..
Jani bolte gelei ghete jabe..
Tai kagoj pen jogar..
Jani tor kashto hobe.

Tabu dekh guchoy ni aaj kotha,
Pen kamre bose anekkan..
Sotto baro nirmam hobe aaj..
Tabu likhboi aaj, bosechi ekbar jakhon.

Tor mone pore tui kache esechili..
Bhalobese ador korechili..
Buker majhe japte dhore amay..
Nispaloke thot jwaliyechili.

Tor thoter agun mon choy ni aamar..
lohar shikole se mon mora chilo..
Andho kuper ek-chilte aloe.. sudhu
Kalponara ador mekhechilo.

Bhalobasi toke ekothata jani..
Temonta noe, jemonta tui chas..
Ami tor premik nai ba holam..
Hote to pari bandhu - dirghyo shwas.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Happy April fool

The story is about a guy (Neel) and a girl (Trishna). Story starts with a wish “Happy April fool” where Neel wished Trishna on 1st April. Some chats and then a long silence.
Neel said “What happened? Why are you so silent?” 
"I have never heard such a wish. So I am little bit surprised."
"Meet me once and you will be more surprised."
A date was fixed when they decided to meet each other. It was not like a so called ‘Date’. It was like a get together within some friends where Neel and Trishna got involved.
Neel was sitting on a staircase when he saw Trishna for the first time. Medium height, fair, long hair, bubbly cheeks and with a crazy smile. They talked to each other for a very small time. They got their numbers exchanged and started chatting on air.
While talking to Trishna, Neel realized that the girl is very lonely. Once divorced, used by friends, depressed. But still she smiles forgetting all the anxieties. This boldness made a good impression on Neel. Neel also realized that may be Trishna had some soft corner regarding Neel. But Neel was not so interested about so called love and bounds or any kind of relationships. So he tried Trishna to make her understand that something more than friendship was impossible.

Trishna didn’t have control over her emotion. She proposed Neel. Neel denied. Trishna was silent and drop the call. Few days were over when they didn’t talk to each other. Neel started feeling that there is something missing. Something or someone. Neel thought a lot and ultimately he got the answer that the ‘someone’ was Trishna. Was it Love? Neel didn’t know. He picked up the phone and dialled her number.
-Hello, Trishna?
-Yes. Who is this?
Neel was shocked. Within this few days Trishna forgot his voice, forgot his number. How is this possible? Or she was trying to hurt him?
-Neel here.
-Hey, hi, how are you? What’s going on?
Neel was shocked again. Why she was behaving like an unknown person? Neel was trying to understand Trishna at that moment.
-I am fine. I just wanted to tell you that…
-What?
-That…
-That what?
-That, its hard for me to spend any more single day without talking to you. Can we be friends like before?
-I have lot of friends. I don’t want to increase the list. We cannot be friends.
Neel was silent. He realized that when he denied Trishna’s proposal, how hurt she was. Neel tried to convince her and wanted to meet once more. Trishna agreed.
They met and talked for long. It was evening. They sat at the edge / banks of a river to see sunset. Trishna put her head on Neel's shoulder. Neel felt warm. Darkness was capturing the surrounding and they were sitting still. After few moments Neel took Trishna’s face in his hand and kissed on her lips. A drop of tears came out from Trishna’s eyes. They closed their eyes. Suddenly Trishna pushed Neel and made some distance and said “I don’t kiss my friends.” Neel realized, Trishna was not his friend any more. She became something more than that. Neel was staring Trishna with blank eyes. Trishna was looking at the river.
-I love you Trishna.
Two more drops of tears on Trishna’s check and she came closer to Neel, hugged him tight and kissed Neel for a long time.
A relation started in this fashion. And here is the end of the 1st half of the story.

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2nd half of this story starts when the relation reached its 3rd year anniversary. Neel met Trishna early morning. Trishna was becoming unknown day by day for Neel. Neel could guess that there might be something serious happening in Trishna’s life which she didn’t want to explain to him. Neel tried hard to understand Trishna but failed. During those three years Neel left his home town for his career. Trishna became also busy with her career also. But till few days back also everything was so perfect. For last few weeks Neel can smell a change in Trishna.

They went roaming here and there, Neel tried so many times to melt her. But Trishna was little bit uneasy. She was behaving like she was out with some unknown person. Neel took Trishna to the same bank of river where their relation started. The time was sunset. Trishna was looking at the river water and Neel was staring Trishna and was expecting something horrible from her.
-Neel, I want to confess something.
-Are you in love with somebody?
-Yes. There is a guy in my office. We work together. I don’t know how I fell in love with him. We went for dinner and movie together. One day he invited me at his place. We spent a night together. I am not yours any more Neel. I don’t love you any more. He is guy who can give me what I expect from my life, not you. I found my own way. I found my Mr. Right for me. You know, he is a senior manager. You should have seen his flat. My god! It’s awesome. Cars, bikes, servants, Money, power - you name anything, he has that. Physically I was so satisfied with him. Neel I should have told you before. But I don’t want to do any more delay. I don’t mind if you take me wrong. But it’s my life. I have full rights to find my own way. I don’t want to live in a middle class family with some silly sentiments. Neel, this is the end.

Trishna went off. Neel was sitting still. I don’t know what he was thinking but probably he was thinking about the 1st wish of him “Happy April fool”.

Friday, March 25, 2011

2 year completed in Corporate sector

Journey is not over. I have just completed 2 years in IT industry. So thought to explore my journey. Sometimes it was awesome sometimes great sometimes so so and sometimes horrible. But what still now what hasn’t changed in me that, I could not make myself corporate. Still now when I hit the canteen I become in college mood. Two or three of us sit together and discuss on very serious topics like, which girl is looking most sexy today or is there any new face in our company? Or may be sometimes we discuss on our salary and everybody ends up with the one liner, “Yaar, company kitna paisa kam deti hai.”

Whether it is promotion time or appraisal time we never ask for how much you have learnt? How is the project? Any prospects of the project etc etc. the first thing we ask is how much increment you got. This discussion also ends up with the same one liner, “Yaar, company kitna paisa kam deti hai.”
I really got hurt when I see people sacked suddenly for some serious issues like breaking company rules. For an IT company rule is rule. You can never break it. It reminds me of my school which was well known for its rules and regulations. Corporate sector never understand that somebody should be given a chance to improve. Coz if you are kicked out, thousand is waiting. I have seen one of my batch mates got sacked on a lovely morning. My honorable coach come captain suddenly told to leave. From these I came to understand that if higher authority determined to kick you out, they can pick up any issue and you cannot say a single word.

 Its my two years completion day. And I really don’t want to think the negatives. I am happy with my work. And hope to write again on the same topic after 4 years completion date. Don’t know at that point of time will I become a corporate or not. But definitely I’ll follow the tag line of our company “Imagination – Action – Joy”.

Monday, February 28, 2011

To whom I was concerned

Adda lekha ghoraghuri..
Buk pocket e kejo nuri..
Mobile e tring tring - kori
Silent.

Bike e chepe long tour..
Jhar brishti roddur..
Message elo - "Phone dhor. Its
Urgent".

Sai-tirish ta missed call..
Moner majhe kolahol..
Phone dhorlei ek-guccho
Aviman.

Please shona ar parchi na..
Eka eka valo lagche na..
Chol eibar sesh kori ei -
Byabodhan.

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Raat birete phone busy tar..
moner vetor khub tolpar..
Sondeho ra dicche uki..
Sabdhan...

Biswase aj bhor korechi..
Ja bolche tai manchi..
Hoeto kajer khujche kono
Somadhan.

Sondeho thik Sondeho thik
Palieche faith edik odik..
Hasle tumi amay bole
Dur-chai..

Bollam ami jasna chere..
Nayika sulabh hath ta nere..
Runujhunu sware bolle amay..
"GOOD-BYE".

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Dreams Unlimited

Let me start with a dialogue from the film “Pyaar to hona hi tha” where Sanjana (Kajol) says “Pata hai Sekhar (Ajay Devan), insaan ko taklif kab hoti hai…jab wo koi swapna dekhta hai, aur wo pura nehi hota.” A true statement. But still, after opening Pandora’s Box we are used to live on dreams. Dreams changes with time to time and it is kind of an infinite loop.

I cannot say about other people how they think, but for me I feel upset if my little dreams break rather than larger dreams. Now, what is the difference in between little dreams and larger dreams? For me, little dreams are like, short time achievements. Suppose I am playing for my office cricket team and my little dream is to win a game where I become man of the match. Bigger dreams are like, I wish I win a lottery of 1Cr. Dreams should not have any bound. At least I don’t have.

Suddenly it stroke in my mind that actually I am talking about wishes. Dreams are those we see when we sleep. May be it happens to everyone that the wishes that we know will never come true; we make them true in dreams. A date with Priyanka Chopra, a century innings for Indian cricket team against Australia, A jackpot winning moment, One slap on the face the person you hate and cannot touch, double promotion in company and a 100% hike all the silly, naughty and cute wishes that we know can never happen, we fulfill it in dream. I don’t know about others, but I do.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

A Valentines Day without my Valentine

It’s always been a clash between me and her that why people celebrate Valentines Day? She told me that, for every couple, if they had enough time and a wallet full of money, every day can be Valentines Day. I didn’t argue this time. A person who is willing to understand or better to say ready to understand, things can be discussed with him/her. But here I know whatever I’ll tell; she will stick to her decision. So I remain silent.

Why we celebrate Durga Puja, Ganesh Chaturthi, Dewali, Eid etc on some particular days? We all pray to god through out the year. What is the significance then to celebrate mother’s day, Children’s day, women’s day etc? There are no controversies regarding these days. Only in case of Valentine’s Day there are lots of issues some people create. Media runs from parks to malls to shoot couples, some political party come on the road to protest and say this is against our culture and all. Why are they worried off if some people think in a special way? If couples celebrate this day spending time with each other or buying gifts for each other, what the harm in that? From our daily life we choose some days to give special attention to everyone. A day for mother, a day for father, a day for child, a day for women and similarly like a day for your beloved one. After marriage we celebrate anniversary, even some date freaks celebrate their first meeting anniversary, first propose anniversary, first kiss anniversary etc. There are so many people who hardly meet and their love is alive over phone or chat. They choose this day to meet with each other, to spend some quality time and to get some good memories. Why do some people like to poke in between them?

Any way, my 14th was good. I didn’t enjoy ‘Valentines Day’ but still the date become special for me. Some long chats with my beloved one, a ride on bike, a feeling of cool air, smoke of an ice-cream made my evening far better than what I expected. I spent Valentine’s Day in my way. And yes, I was NOT with my Valentine.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Why ??

The phone rang and rang for two hundred eighty nine times. I was sitting in front of my mobile and watching the blinking lights. The name that was appearing on the display of that person whom I loved. I was eager to say hello. I was eager to listen to her voice. But i couldn’t. Her own words bounded my hands. Her betray made a wall between me and her. Oops, its two hundred and ninetieth time its ringing. Flashing lights are like yes-no-yes -no rhythm. I can understand that now she wants to break the wall. She is trying to break the wall. But without my hands she cannot jump over it. I am sitting like statue. Hands are trying to push the receive button but cannot. They are bounded by the words "Please leave me alone... I want to leave.. You cannot give me a better life..So what you expect from me..?? I have chosen my partner..Don’t ever try to cross my roads....."
Heart is trying to hit a shift+del in memory but what time can do...heart cannot. Again it’s ringing. Let’s face it.
- Hello..
- What the hell? I am trying to reach you for so long...
- Why?
- I wanna talk to you.. Listen to your voice..
- Why?
- I was missing you..
- Why?
- I am feeling lonely...
- Why?
- I came to know that he has an affair.... so i decided not to keep any relation with him...
- Why?
- How can i keep a relation with such a bustard?
- Why?
- What why?.... do you mean to say... I did the same with you... yes of course i did. But i am missing you terribly..
- Why?
- I have done a mistake... a big mistake.. I want our previous time back....
- Why?
- I had some dreams..With you... But I know I have ruined it by myself...
- Why?
- I donnow what happened to me then... i was captured by some freaky thoughts...kiddies sentiments...and..and..
- And a dream of a big house.. a big car.. A bedroom with central AC..A husband with two thousand five hundred rupees of daily income...lavishness....
- I was wrong. I was wrong.
- Why did you do this to me? Why did you just throw me away like a used cup. Why did you lied when i asked you that was there something happening? Why did you tell me have faith on your words?
- Can we start again?
- Start what?

Phone got disconnected. Conversation was incomplete.