It’s been a long time when I didn’t write anything. And today insomnia returned and while having a sleepless night, I found something to write. Let’s have some intellectual talk. After a long time I am still awake. It’s 3.16 A.M. Last time it was on a purpose. Last time it was having a whole night roam with friends to Kolkata puja pandals.
Here I am not to share my puja experience. I cannot explain it in words. It was so good apart from the last day evening. I am not a caring guy inborn. Not even had good sense of humour. All I have right now; I invented and pushed in myself. I still don’t know if someone is getting bored in front of me, how to cheer him/her up. I felt bad when she was feeling bore and I could not cheer her up. I felt she acted to smile, because it was our last meet before my returning. This is the situation where I jealous one of my class mates in college and one of my friends in my locality. How I wish if I had a good sense of humour. This I think my improvement area.
2nd area of improvement is little difficult for me as I am a very silent kind of person. If I don’t like something, I cannot say that face to face. It’s not because what the opposite person gonna think. It’s because something make me silent. I tried so many times to speak it up, but something held my voice. I got hurt, I become silent. I make mistake, I become silent. Something needs to be done. I don’t recall them in normal time, but insomnia returns, all those words come to my mind and block my thoughts.
Today I feel something missing. Feel the day is not ended properly. And I cannot sleep. Something like a break in daily habits. What is that? Still finding the answer.
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