I didn't get anything in my life within time. Everything turns up so late that I don't feel the charm of achieving that thing. Now the most important part is I am still not used to it. May be after being victim so many times I should have accepted my fate, but I could not. There is always a hope that once, atleast once in my life I will get something smoothly.
May be this is little confusing. So let me explain. I still remember the day when I was selected in joint entrance examination, but due to my poor family condition I was about to forced in general line to study either literature or any science subject. I was so keen and exited after my joint result that whoever pointed finger at me as a non-studious guy, I proved them wrong atleast in one exam. My excitement came to an end when I started realizing that Engineering is a richer people catch not like us who belongs to lower middle class family. At the end my father somehow arranged a bank loan and I entered engineering college. My dream to be in engineering college came true but there was no excitement left.
Coming down to Third year final semester when campassing was going on I grabbed an offer and I was so excited that all my effort paid off and I will start my career right after my study. After completing 4th Year when all my friends were joining and I was eagerly waiting for the day when I will also join, then a mail came and I came to know that My joining date is postponed by 6 month. Again after 6 months another mail saying that the joining postponed for another 8 months and after 8 months again a mail with no joining date to my first company. By that time all my excitement to start a career has gone and I was struggling in Marketing with reliance and when I came to know that the company is not going to give joining then I tried for BPO and thankfully I got a chance in Wipro. When I was almost settled and performing well and thinking about shining in BPO sector my first company got merged with some another company and they decided to give the joining to the pending candidates. I joined a company after 3 years being selected. I was not excited at all. Rather I was feeling bad to leave Wipro as I had some good friends around me by that time. Still technical line better than BPO (by everyone's believe), so I joined and set a journey of 5 years.
Again the same thing happening with me. Again a ray of hope came and lost. And now when I actually thinking to be settled in the new company after job change it is poking me and may be in near future I will get that opportunity. But truly, I am not so much excited. I am just doing things calm and quietly.
I always been treated badly by hope. It always played with me and gave me what I dreamed off, but at that point of time when I feel no good and excited about that achievement. I just gave very small examples which includes my professional life. There are many more in my personal life as well. But there are something that I don't want to remember. There are something that I wish to forget as soon as possible. That's why I didn't write them to my diary or to any of my blogs.
Lets see how much life can play with me before being stable. Long way to go before I sleep. Long way to go before I sleep.
Its been long days I wrote anything in my blog. Its not that I didn't get time, But it is because my enthusiasm of writing came down drastically for last few months. Today I am determined to writeup something and also I missed so many things to update here.
In between these days my life has changed a lot. A sentimental silent bachelor has tied the knot and he also completed his probation period (read : 6 months) and running pretty well.
I was going through my previous blogs and there was something like winning over people who hated me a lot, finally I have done that and I don't feel different about that as well. May be I have grown up or may be I have become more practical about life.
Now, How is my married life going and what all changes came to my life? First things first, even after 6 months of my marriage, I don't feel like I am married. I feel good about that. No such boundaries that is imposed on me, rather I feel free and happy that I got a charming chatterbox in my life with whom I can share my little words and listen to her enormous talks. This is the biggest change as of now. The second change is I have left Mindtree. After 5 years 1 month and 15 days I moved on. I didn't expect that some person will cry on my departure but that un-expected thing happened for the second time in my life. Yes I was also in tears but I somehow managed to cover it up by my crazy mumbo jumbos.
May be this will sound little childish but a person like me, who was often out of spot light, feels good when somebody shows his/her love and affection. I am thankful to the people who cares for me.
I haven't answered the question properly that why I have left Mindtree after 5 years. When I got promoted few months back. Salary was been revised well enough, then why changing the job and leaving the comfort zone? Here I pour my heart. Firstly, I sensed the project that I had been working has came to an end and I have to start again from the scratch. So if I have to start from the scratch then why not in different company. Secondly, a big part of my compensation was project specific. That means till the time I am in the project, I'll be eligible for that. That scared me. Thirdly, all my friends with whom I joined Mindtree has either left company or moved to onsite. I started finding mindtree little unknown. Fourthly, after marriage I felt that my salary is not enough to survive in Pune which pushed me a lot to go for the change. Thats all. I miss the people over there. I miss the cricket team in mindtree and MPL which will be played again this year and I wont be able to be a part of it.
As a conclusion, things are stable now and I am going through a pretty comfortable time these days. And for those who fear to get married, a suggestion to them : Keep things simple and marriage is a wonderful thing.
